Jansen’s Journal – May 27, 2018

May 27, 2018
San Francisco, CA

I’m going to puke.

I’m at my first pro match ever in my life and I’m going to throw up.

His voice snapped me out of my nausea.

“You’ll be fine. Get a drink of water to make sure you hydrate and you’ll do just fine.”

Biff Franklin is looking back at me on my tablet. He’s in El Paso for the upcoming HCW show and wanted to check in on me.

“I know. I know. I’m just nervous. What if I lose?”

“Then you lose.” I guess the look on my face didn’t come across to him as very understanding as he just shook his head, “Look, you’ll either win or you’ll lose. Do the best you can. Give a hundred percent. Go out there and do what it is that you have been telling me that you want to do. Your dream, remember?”

It has been my dream. From the day I first fell in love with it, until today — not a thing has changed. My feelings for this sport hasn’t changed one little bit and I’m moments away from making my in-ring debut and the butterflies are working overtime in my gut.

He’s right, though.

What matters is that I’m going to go out there and give it all I have. His voice again woke me from my thoughts.

“If you’re done daydreaming, you might want to go ahead and get ready. I’m almost certain they’re not going to hold up the show based solely on your debut match. I hope you went around and met everyone. Courtesy and all.”

“I have.” I shook hands with as many of the other wrestlers that I could. “I know you had to close down the school, so I hope you don’t mind that I am going to start going to the Rose City Academy, now? I feel like I still need to work on my training.”

“It’s a great idea, kid. Not sure how long I’ll be doing this GM gig, but you definitely should continue to train and might help you to train with those you will be working with in the future.”

“Thanks, Mr. Frankling. Thanks for understanding.”

“Tear the place down, Myrrh?”

“I’ll do my best.”

His face disappeared from the screen and I slid my tablet into my bag and leaned back on the bench, taking in a deep breath. I started pulling my gear out of my bag to start getting dressed.

Today is the day.

Today is the day where it all begins for me.